Enslavement

Enslaving me once more
The thought’s not becoming whole
Every night’s becoming a dread
The time of feast has come to an end
Nothing more to look forward to
A dying heart and withering hope
One more day to try to make it through
For once I feel it’s taking over
The glimmer of blood,
New pools of red, of dead
And a new place to love and behold
Something I could run to
An ode to hide

Holding From

How many times will she fall?
She can’t save her own self
So, who will finally break the spell?
As she dies, her close ones watch
They stand around laughing
Unknowing to her downfall
She locks it in her mind
The curse obtains what he wants
It won’t let this one go
She’ll die right there, on her bed
Dying from the depression he has cast
He’ll destroy her, playing with her soul
Letting her own mind fool her
She’ll believe all was her fault
She’ll bleed her dying lie from her broken heart
She’ll cry to be saved
But no one will come
She’ll plead for salvation
But none will come her way
Crying, bleeding, pleading, lying
She’ll know the pain she has hid from so long
She can’t hide forever
She knows her time has come
She’ll lay on her death bed
Note in her hand
Saying good-bye to those she holds dear
But never knowing that most never knew she was here
Soon enough, her heart will stop
Her mind slowly descending into the abyss
She’ll take her last breath
She’ll finally know the bliss of the new land
She’ll be far awayAnd watch from the sky

My Emotionless Sight

What do you see when there’s nothing there?
What is the dark hole that needs to be filled?
Why can’t my stealing stop me from bleeding?
Why can’t I answer my questions?
If anything is possible
What does it take to see what I want?
What else must I take to plug up this hole?
My mindless desires
My heartless emotions
What will I do when my time tells me no?
When is it, that I have to go?
Going away forever
But this isn’t my farewell
It’s my new time
I have to stand up
I have to unlock
I have to do it on my own
Just this one time
I need to believe
In this deep cave surrounding me
I have to move on
Broken or not
Watching myself fall
I’ll be okay
I know somehow

Before We Part

Everyday I think
I act on instincts
My mind floats away
My thoughts land on you
I keep thinking
What will happen to everything?
How will this all end?
Will I see another day peacefully?
I wonder about the little things
Why must humans crush the defenseless?
Something I can’t change
We could try to change
But everything will grow as we do
So what’s the use of having this charade?
When will all life as we know it end?
It’s all a lie
Isn’t it?
Are you afraid to say I’m right?
If everything was a lie,
Would you tell me?
No, I don’t think you would
But, I honestly hope you do
Hear the music flow through
Let everything become
Just start with the truth

Broken Truths and Fake Lies

Everything you have told Me..
I believed
I don't understand..
Why you'd tell me something like that.
Everything you've told me
Is a big fat lie!
I don't understand you
All I know is your..
Broken truths and fakes lies
Destroy something that life hides
Nothing..
And I mean by everything I have told you is all true!
Understand me,
I don't know anymore!
Can’t you change one last time?
I need to know why you told me these broken truths!I don't understand
Why you think you're grand
When you're just like me!
Living again in this world of people in these masks
Of broken truths and fake lies
You'll find out everything
When you're all alone..
Don't you understand?
That life isn't supposed to be perfect
Once again I’m dying in this world..
Of broken truths and fake lies!

Choking On My Own

If the world was on my side
Nothing bad would have happend
But that's not the case
I jynx it, I'm sorry
I wish to fly away with all
All those that really care
But today, I'm stuck here
In a grave I dug myself
A place with all the things I hate
Myself, I don't understand
I wish to forget everything bad
But those are my memories
And honestly, I don't regret
I grow, and hold on to my sanity
Choking on my own destiny
I look forward
I pretend that one day it will mend
But all I need
The world of my own
I choke on everything that happens
I think of those lies
I think of becoming like the others
Robots of what the world plots
But I don't want to give in
Give me the strength
Or I'll choke on my own again

The Fragile

I am the easily broken
But I’m the strongest of my kind
What is it that most would hate?
Is it what the simple have gone through?
Trust someone with everything you have
You end up broken in the end
Forgive someone once, but never do so a second time
Your heart always ends up torn out
I wish to have more wisdom in why
Why am I always the broken?
Should I truly forgive once more?
I used to keep my heart in a box
So it wouldn’t be broken
I’ve handed it over
It’s been dropped and stitched together
But now I’m putting it back in it’s box
It’s been hurt much too hard
I don’t think it would be able to beat
Not once more
So I will put it so sleep
I will become the broken again
I will become emotionless once more