Is This Bad?

Look at me now
All care free and shit
I don't know if this is good
It was before you left
I don't really care
I don't miss you
I know it's strange
Is this bad?
I don't know what to do
I feel empty without you
But i honestly don't miss you
Is this bad?
I really do care about you
But I don't miss you
This is all strange to me
But life continues, all and free
Thanks for trying to help
But I never really needed it
Whatever, you're gone for now
And when you come back I hope it's the same
They'll welcome you with open arms
But I won't
I don't miss you now
I seriously do care about you
But you have them
Is this bad?
I hope you understand